Excerpt from ‘I Am Aye’
What is Love?
Love is acceptance. Love is forgiveness. Love does not hinder. Love heals. Where darkness once reigned Love can bring light and start all over again. There is no fear in Love. Fear is the opposite of Love. Fear breads hatred.’
If love is all these things, why does it cause so much pain? Not just emotional and psychological pain but actual physical pain. Love does not cause any of this pain. Our lack of overstanding of love causes this pain. Our inability to truly conceive of love, our misconceptions of love, and that wonderful invention called TV has humanity’s perception of reality nothing more than a fantasy. I Am Aye is a book of my emotional poetry but I have to get spiritual on this issue of Love. Because it comes from above. Love is not a physical issue, it is a spiritual issue. In order to overstand as much as we Earth humans can we have to go to the Source which the majority of us know as God. Anyone who has a true relationship with God knows the answer to all of my questions.
Any reporter will tell you if you want answers, go to the source. Mind you, I said the Source, not his would be, could be, wanna be messenger. That is what Jesus came to teach us and they killed him for it, called it blasphemy. When He clearly stated worship the Father not me. That is why he is called the Son. That is another misconceived page in His Story. …..
So to the Source I went. I asked Him because He is the only one who knows me better than me. Is my love true or was this just not meant to be? Why am I in so much pain? Why is it taking so long to heal? Why can I not stop loving this man?
And as only God can He showed me all that I needed to see, based in my own experience.
How I do love His Mercy. From beginning to end He showed me that it wasn’t love that failed me. To my surprise it was none other than Aye.
‘Love can not be bought or sold. Love is not control. Love comes from the soul. Love is unconditional. Love is universal. Love has no beginning. Love has no END. Love is infinite. Love has no expectations. Love is acceptance. Love is forgiveness. Love does not hinder. Love heals. Where darkness once reigned Love can bring light and start all over again. There is no fear in Love. Fear is the opposite of Love. Fear breads hatred.’
This is what God told me.
It was only then did I realize that I had placed expectations, conditions, time limits, no acceptance, very little forgiveness, and I tried to control love and in doing so caused myself years of pain and emotional torment. The man I loved simply asked me to accept his love as is and love him still and I refused to because it did not meet my expectations of what love should be. So I proceeded to attempt to kill the feelings I had for him to no avail. This was the main source of my pain, trying to kill what I felt and make sure I never felt it again, (baggage). ’Love has no beginning, love has no end, Love is infinite’.
You can not kill it!